Category: Balcony Talk

Note – (1) An opening chat on my experience at Girl’s Camp and healthy eating, even when you po! LOL

(2) I believe that the Covid Pandemic, which I quickly started calling “Pandemonium 2020…2021…2022… … was actually what some religious circle’s call a “Crucible” or “Test” or what I also quickly began calling a “Shake-Up To Wake-Up” and a “Test of God to see how much we inhabitants of earth love our neighbors.” My Facebook memories will reflect this belief and attitude. At the time, I first tried getting the religious authorities to chill a minute and take stock and, after this failed, I used the first stimulus check to buy a flute. I had asked the Lord, in the current situation of isolation; “How can I best exhibit the faith that I have in You, Lord?” The Lord told me to buy a flute and practice re-learning to play it on my balcony. And so I did. It had been14 years since I last picked up a flute. Understand this too. At the time I bought the flute, I had no income. It would still be another five or six months before the SSI disability claim was finally accepted. I was still very much poor, when I bought my flute during Pandemonium 2020…2021…2022…

However, my belief on the Covid Pandemic was shot down by the religious authorities several times. And this concept, along with what Nathan and I are talking about with the concept of saying “NO!” to the Booty, also being shot down, with seemingly no allies? I felt very very isolated in my beliefs. And it brought a dark and oppressive spirit over me. For a while, I posted the feature image for this Balcony Talk on my Facebook page. I didn’t know what else to do? I felt I could no longer be honest among my own people within the Seventh-day Adventist religion.

(3) Praise God for the technology of video recording!

Note – (1) I was still posting Balcony Talk specifically for Facebook. So you will hear me reference Facebook in this way throughout the episodes until sometime in February. (2) I said “attitude” in that way, because I had just told a religious “Yes” man that they needed an attitude adjustment. I kid you not! (3) In Christ, nobody is better than anyone else. (4) Nathan settled, and war broke out. There was an emergency at his job.

Additional Notes – I chose the featured image, because there is more going on than meets the eye. This is when the Lord began strongly cajoling me to “Look at Lot.” …. “Look at Lot!” …. LOOK at Lot!!” …. “LOOK AT LOT!!!” In the following episodes you will find out why, just as I found out why, the Lord kept telling me to look at Lot. And the joy in realizing that, the LORD God is fully able and capable of snatching a righteous person (a believer) out from the fires of His Executive Judgements. As in the example of Lot, at the destruction of Sodom and Gomorrah….

Scripture Nathan Referenced Found – Hebrews 4

Scripture References Found – Hosea 10, Isaiah 56, Job 33-37, Psalm 96, and James 1

Note – It hit me later that it is my own heart that I’m to till for the seeds that God the Father liberally sows throughout the world. Quite the opposite of what I had always been taught, so it took a minute to sink in. You will be hearing me make references to the traditional thoughts on seed sowing from time to time, as I work to remove this tare of untruth from my heart. GOD DOES IT ALL. My only requirement is to believe by faith in Jesus Christ and seek the perfect and pleasing good will of God. Believe it or not? God’s will is found in the Bible. There is no excuse not to know God’s will.

One of the things that the Lord started training me on, back when Dakota and I were homeless and seeking shelter, is to look for the grace of God in any given situation. Not always easy to do. But, it is possible to find God’s grace if you look for it. A rainbow in the sky, after a summer storm, is a Great reminder of God’s grace. I gave some “homework” for the Facebook peeps, but nary a response was returned. So, let’s bring this little assignment here. Make a deliberate choice to look for the grace of God within the week, and share your testimony. I’d like to see My Big Blue Pearl filled with the Testimony of Jesus.

For me, truth principles and standards are important in my faith walking. It is one thing to not know and do. Quite another to know and do. If you catch my drift? When we go into our inner room and pray to our Father who is in secret, and our Father who sees what is done in secret will reward you. True Story!

The rest of my notes I’m gonna have to save until later. The wounds of recent revelations of the practices of a religion I loved, are still too raw. And I’m going to Goosfraba Cool It Out first….

Scripture References Found – 1 Peter 1, Ezekiel 37, Hebrews 11, John 1, Proverbs 29, Matthew 25, Acts 18 and 19, Revelation 3, Mark 12, Jeremiah 1, Revelation 18, John 3, and James 1

Note – 1. I was still posting Balcony Talk on Facebook, so there may be a few references to this. 2. I was also in the throws of anguish, having to choose, once again, whom I loved more. The Lord who rescued me in the alley. Or…. and I could list several things to fill the space of “Or” running the gamut of fleshly pleasures, accolades, religion, and family. In the end, I have still chosen to maintain the faith of Jesus and walk in obedience to the dictates of my conscience, to worship the LORD God wholeheartedly by coming to know the Son of God who left His Glory, to take my death on the bathroom floor. And, to retain my sanity and sobriety, I also had to walk away from the people, places, and things that trigger me to let in the sin that crouches at my door. At least, until I can Goosfraba Cool It Out enough to come to terms with the things that I have found out recently, concerning the secrets that are kept for the face and reputation of a man-made religion? In Jesus name…

“Weaker But Wiser” is a MaJoice saying. And, I gotta say, I think it’s pretty spot on? I mean, when else has mankind made the kind of advances we have today? Although, with Nathan saying, concerning the foresight questions the prophets of old could have said; “You can fly?” And, we have had a door blow out one plane-which was just one of how many did they find with missing bolts? And today, a piece of a wing fell off! I’m not sure if “wiser” could be said about the way human beings are so eager to be cattle-d into flying aluminum tubes, just to get from here to there? But, that’s just my humble opinion. I had a very bad experience flying from LAX to Houston to Nashville in 1984. The turbulence was so bad, I thought the plane was going to shake apart?! The pilot tried going up to get out of it, and down to get out of it. There was no place in the airspace, where it was not crazy-shakin’!? We landed in Nashville with the wings rocking. I was praying the whole way, even though I did not know and acknowledge the Spirit of the LORD; “Please God? If you get me on the ground safely in Nashville, so I can see my husband? I will NEVER get back on a plane again!” And, I have kept that vow since 1984. I must confess this, thoug, from 1984. As I rode the escalator down and Stephen saw my face, he said; “You are white as a sheet?! What happened?” All I could do was mutter a mangled “Take me to the Spaghetti Factory! I need a drink.” Once my nerves settled, I told him about the experience.

Additional Notes – 1. I’m still trying to understand the “places” in God’s Kingdom. And I’m not really sure if me saying that Lucifer was the highest angel, are the right words? It could be that, because I have always heard it that way, I’m muttering a tradition? I do not yet have enough evidence to determine Lucifer’s position (as of February 21, 2024). Forgive me for any confusion on this? As, I’m still learning from the Lord about the Spirit of the Word, too, myself. Thanks in advance. : ) 2. This is when the Lord started insisting that I “Look at Lot.” More to this story later…..

Scripture References Found – Revelation 14, Proverbs 24, 1 John 3, Hebrews 10, Genesis 4, Genesis 2, Galatians 5, Romans 7 and 8, Ephesians 4, Matthew 23, Exodus 20

Note – 1. Vee likes the television show; The Big Bang Theory. Hence the Sheldon reference. 2. My dog, Dakota, and I had been offered an upper room in the activities building at the church we had been attending. After finding out that we were living in a tent, someone at the church remembered my family name “Mitzelfelt” and, confirming my story with my Aunt Pat, petitioned the church board to allow Dakota and me to stay in an upper room in the activities building, while I was working through the red tape for the supplemental housing Section 8 Voucher program. I’m very grateful for the help from the SDA church. However, I was unaware that there are different provinces and factions within SDA Land’s religions? And I had run into a Last Generation Theology of Sinless Perfection SDA/Davidian Church. She also dines on a liberal portion of New Age Theology, and enjoys the company of spiritual predators. I found myself in a very tough spot. But did what I could to help out, to earn their hospitality, until the Lord gave me a way out. More to this story later…. 3. As I have stated before, I re-watch Balcony Talk episodes before releasing them for public view. In this episode is another statement to that fact. 4. Nathan has brought to the table a brilliant thought on the fruits of the tree of life vs the fruits of the tree of knowledge of good and evil. Let us know what you think? 5. I was, and still am, very disappointed with the lackluster response to the Ted Wilson Speech, Declaration, and Ultimatum. But. I have resolved myself into the realization that, maybe, the warning trumpet was just for me? I don’t know? Everyone else seems to be satisfied with doing the same things over and over and over again, but expecting different results? 6. The sermon drifted into all about monetary blessings from God. 7. I believe that it is a deliberate ignorance and blind denial today. 02/20/2024. 8. Besides Hamas invading Israel and Ted Wilson tooting the Kazoo, I had one other thing happen that I had never seen God move in this way, before, other than in the Old Testament?! I’m not tempting that kind of absolute power!

The Lord has led me on a journey through the consequences of my choices, that I would not trade for any book learning nor higher education that the world has to offer. Through the kindness of others- strangers and Christians alike- along with a couple of faithful teachers, and many more unfaithful teachers, but we can learn from the unfaithful, too. MaJoice, the lady pictured with me, was a faithful teacher who taught me much at our weekly lunches at Hibachi’s Grill. She wanted to make sure that both Dakota and I had a decent meal at least once a week, while we were homeless. You don’t meet too many like MaJoice in this world. And I’m very grateful the Lord brought her into my life at the beginning of our journey. The Lord weaves people in and out of our lives for His reasons. And I have purposed in my heart that, by the Spirit’s Guidance, I will try to look for the grace of God in the faithful teachers, and to learn from the mistakes of the unfaithful teachers. No matter what…. In Jesus name.

This year, the Lord has made me realize that, in Christ, I can discern the doubt seeds that those who harbor unbelief liberally sow. I did not know this was possible? The reaction to this phenomenon started making me physically ill after an encounter with someone who is still hanging onto some shame and darkness, doubt and unbelief. I inadvertently hurt some folks in the spiritual battles that ensued as I was kicking doubt and unbelief out of my spiritual door. I have apologized.

I believe that I was experiencing the outpouring of the Holy Spirit, which is freely given to all who ask, when I had no appetite and felt almost electrified. For everyone who asks, receives; the one who seeks finds; and the one who knocks, the door will be opened. I’ve learned more from the Lord about self-control and boundaries, through Christ, and am learning more every day. There is not much I can say to, nor about, the thoughts of the other people today? Because most of them still refuse to reconcile with me. It just is what it is. Prophecy Comes Alive….

Note – 1. Has your church become a marketplace where people go to buy beliefs? 2. Praise God for video! 3. The name of the song that wasn’t coming to memory is “Landslide” by Fleetwood Mac. 4. If you don’t like the song? Pass along. Don’t condemn and twerk. Let the Lord do His good work. 5. I will always promote sharing our experience, strength, and hope in Christ Jesus. Get used to it.

We finished up the Scripture reading, and began talking about the events that had occurred the week before, on October 7, 2023. Not only had Hamas invaded Israel, but, on the home-front of America, the President of the General Conference of, what used to be, the Seventh-day Adventist Church-now World Church Christian Organization Business And Professional Foundation (for tax purposes, they tell me), had also stood up and sounded a warning trumpet….turned Kazoo toot, on the same day. October 7, 2023. For a few weeks, I called it The Ted Wilson Speech, Declaration, And Ultimatum. I, mistakenly thought the folks would be glad to have had a warning trumpet announcing the sifting of the sieve? Understanding that the enemy is within our gate, and it was time to stand and pledge our allegiance to whom we serve. The LORD God. Or…tic..toc..tic..toc..tic..toc… could it be that they already have?

Scripture Reference Found – Matthew 6

Scripture References Found – Proverbs 24, and Ephesians 4

Note – 1. Vee fell down and went BOOM! It was not a “recess in the school of Christ”?! : 0 Be very, very careful with what’cha say in prayer, in the presence of the Lord, in front of another person, or two, or three…. Just lett’in ya know…. 2. The amazing grace of God is found all over the Old Testament. Who, that has lied to a Pharaoh, traded your wife, had to flee for your life-still keeping all your worldly possessions, and then some. And not be thinking the entire time, “I’m fixin’ to die!?!” ?!? While reading the verses again, along with the video, before I put it on My Big Blue Pearl, because, you know, I’m not as secure in what I say, and want to make sure if any further explanation or correction is warranted, I saw the grace of God. And I Knew Exactly why, once Abram reached a safe place, he chose to worship the LORD. After all, without the LORD, Abram was a dead man walking. Just sayin’

I had planned on telling a story about the grace God has shown me in my lifetime, even before I acknowledged Him as my LORD. But, you know, it would take up this entire magazine, and still I wouldn’t even scratch the surface. Maybe another time in snippets? Just listen to the grace of God, as the story of Abram, Sarai, and Pharaoh and then Lot, is read from God’s Word. And let the Lord speak to your hearts and minds.

Note – 3. I know there is a family darkness in my family. Is there one in yours?

Note – We more just talked about the events that were taking place at this time in the life of Abram, Sarai, and Pharaoh. The heading that I posted this episode under, on Facebook, was; “Oh What Tangled Webs We Weave, When We First Practice To Deceive.” However, there really is more to this story than the eye. In fact, Vee was under conviction by the Holy Spirit, and it was dawning on me that my decision to sin in the sight of the LORD, with another person, had actually caused that person to receive, as Pharaoh had received, due to Abram and Sarai’s little white lie. It would be a few hours, before it hit me that the LORD had passed by, and He found me wanting. By His grace alone, am I still here. Straight up, He weighed me, and I had gear missing. Or, too much gear? I followed the advice of Jesus, and went and sinned no more, that sin! I’m still learning to identify the sins that crouch at my door. But, with God, It’s an amazing experience to learn the Lord’s ways of wrangling my sins, and kicking them out of my spiritual door. The greatest part about this is the LORD’s always ever faithful warnings of “Watch Out! For sin crouches at your door, Venisa. But you must subdue it, and be its master.” Without His guiding hand, I wouldn’t be sitting here today.

Scripture References Found – 2 Corinthians 5, Matthew 16, Galatians 6, 1 John 5, Jeremiah 49

Note – 1. It has been a bit difficult to re-watch these episodes from October 13, 2023, before uploading them here. I was elated that finally something would be done to prevent what had happened to me, from happening to anyone else…all the way across the board. As of February 19,2024, the warning trumpet sounded on October 7, 2023, has petered out to less than a sounding Kazoo. The President of the General Conference, is the CEO of the American Corporate World Church Christian Organization Business And Professional Foundation, that at one time was the Seventh-day Adventist Church. Considering how many people had told me that they were tired of all the confusion within the churches? I thought; “Finally! Something can get done about this…….” tic-toc-tic-toc-tic-toc-tic-toc ….. So, the truth is, the people who were tired of the confusion, really aren’t that tired of it. Folks whom I have loved for the last seven years, and who walked along with me from the alley (story later) have chosen to remain in a “mum’s the word” kind of state and/or condition. They don’t talk to me anymore. It just is what it is. 2. One of the things that I noticed, after the LORD called me out of my darkness into His marvelous Light, was that everyone, from believers to agnostic, seemed to think that it was their job to tell me what sins that I needed to overcome, to remain faithful to God. Granted, to stop smoking, drinking, and eating a healthier diet are good for me. My health is improving. But, I had/have real issues that, doing what they were telling me to do, did not take away? Like, misery, depression, insomnia, not being able to shut off my thoughts… while also struggling with homelessness and staying away from da da … the drugs that had been my comfort for almost 40 years- opiates, and other stuff. Or, in other words, what the rehabs call, a “poly-drug abuser.” So, I do take offense, when folks who have done nothing more than stick a little toe into the world I ran around in for over 40 years, then tells me that I have to overcome their sins. Jesus says to pick up my cross and follow Him. Not yours. And Vice-Versa. 3. I was still holding out hope, but alas, the people like the carrot on the stick more…..

Note – We ended with Jeremiah and the underwear. Hence the reason for the picture. ; )

Note – I was still riding on the joy that, after at least 60 years, things were finally out in the open of the mess that the SDA religion had gotten herself into. For my entire life I had been gaslight about what I was seeing and experiencing inside SDA Land, as the people just seemingly wandered around unawares, in something I’ve also known, blissful ignorance. And, as much as I hate to admit it? I think that the people like it that way. Within three months I would come to the conclusion that one cannot snatch anyone out of the fire when they enjoy the burn and, one canst throw a Life-Preserver to folks who are comfortable drowning. Little did I know then, what had been standing there all along, in plain sight. Revealed in my Year of Jubilee…… : 0

Additional Note – The excitement in being in love with the Word of God is contagious. Catch ya some.

Scripture References Found – Genesis 3, Exodus 20, Genesis 4, 1 John 4