Author: Venisa Tidwell

Scripture References Found – Hosea 10, Isaiah 56, Job 33-37, Psalm 96, and James 1

Note – It hit me later that it is my own heart that I’m to till for the seeds that God the Father liberally sows throughout the world. Quite the opposite of what I had always been taught, so it took a minute to sink in. You will be hearing me make references to the traditional thoughts on seed sowing from time to time, as I work to remove this tare of untruth from my heart. GOD DOES IT ALL. My only requirement is to believe by faith in Jesus Christ and seek the perfect and pleasing good will of God. Believe it or not? God’s will is found in the Bible. There is no excuse not to know God’s will.

One of the things that the Lord started training me on, back when Dakota and I were homeless and seeking shelter, is to look for the grace of God in any given situation. Not always easy to do. But, it is possible to find God’s grace if you look for it. A rainbow in the sky, after a summer storm, is a Great reminder of God’s grace. I gave some “homework” for the Facebook peeps, but nary a response was returned. So, let’s bring this little assignment here. Make a deliberate choice to look for the grace of God within the week, and share your testimony. I’d like to see My Big Blue Pearl filled with the Testimony of Jesus.

For me, truth principles and standards are important in my faith walking. It is one thing to not know and do. Quite another to know and do. If you catch my drift? When we go into our inner room and pray to our Father who is in secret, and our Father who sees what is done in secret will reward you. True Story!

The rest of my notes I’m gonna have to save until later. The wounds of recent revelations of the practices of a religion I loved, are still too raw. And I’m going to Goosfraba Cool It Out first….

Scripture References Found – 1 Peter 1, Ezekiel 37, Hebrews 11, John 1, Proverbs 29, Matthew 25, Acts 18 and 19, Revelation 3, Mark 12, Jeremiah 1, Revelation 18, John 3, and James 1

Note – 1. I was still posting Balcony Talk on Facebook, so there may be a few references to this. 2. I was also in the throws of anguish, having to choose, once again, whom I loved more. The Lord who rescued me in the alley. Or…. and I could list several things to fill the space of “Or” running the gamut of fleshly pleasures, accolades, religion, and family. In the end, I have still chosen to maintain the faith of Jesus and walk in obedience to the dictates of my conscience, to worship the LORD God wholeheartedly by coming to know the Son of God who left His Glory, to take my death on the bathroom floor. And, to retain my sanity and sobriety, I also had to walk away from the people, places, and things that trigger me to let in the sin that crouches at my door. At least, until I can Goosfraba Cool It Out enough to come to terms with the things that I have found out recently, concerning the secrets that are kept for the face and reputation of a man-made religion? In Jesus name…

“Weaker But Wiser” is a MaJoice saying. And, I gotta say, I think it’s pretty spot on? I mean, when else has mankind made the kind of advances we have today? Although, with Nathan saying, concerning the foresight questions the prophets of old could have said; “You can fly?” And, we have had a door blow out one plane-which was just one of how many did they find with missing bolts? And today, a piece of a wing fell off! I’m not sure if “wiser” could be said about the way human beings are so eager to be cattle-d into flying aluminum tubes, just to get from here to there? But, that’s just my humble opinion. I had a very bad experience flying from LAX to Houston to Nashville in 1984. The turbulence was so bad, I thought the plane was going to shake apart?! The pilot tried going up to get out of it, and down to get out of it. There was no place in the airspace, where it was not crazy-shakin’!? We landed in Nashville with the wings rocking. I was praying the whole way, even though I did not know and acknowledge the Spirit of the LORD; “Please God? If you get me on the ground safely in Nashville, so I can see my husband? I will NEVER get back on a plane again!” And, I have kept that vow since 1984. I must confess this, thoug, from 1984. As I rode the escalator down and Stephen saw my face, he said; “You are white as a sheet?! What happened?” All I could do was mutter a mangled “Take me to the Spaghetti Factory! I need a drink.” Once my nerves settled, I told him about the experience.

Additional Notes – 1. I’m still trying to understand the “places” in God’s Kingdom. And I’m not really sure if me saying that Lucifer was the highest angel, are the right words? It could be that, because I have always heard it that way, I’m muttering a tradition? I do not yet have enough evidence to determine Lucifer’s position (as of February 21, 2024). Forgive me for any confusion on this? As, I’m still learning from the Lord about the Spirit of the Word, too, myself. Thanks in advance. : ) 2. This is when the Lord started insisting that I “Look at Lot.” More to this story later…..

Scripture References Found – Revelation 14, Proverbs 24, 1 John 3, Hebrews 10, Genesis 4, Genesis 2, Galatians 5, Romans 7 and 8, Ephesians 4, Matthew 23, Exodus 20

Note – 1. Vee likes the television show; The Big Bang Theory. Hence the Sheldon reference. 2. My dog, Dakota, and I had been offered an upper room in the activities building at the church we had been attending. After finding out that we were living in a tent, someone at the church remembered my family name “Mitzelfelt” and, confirming my story with my Aunt Pat, petitioned the church board to allow Dakota and me to stay in an upper room in the activities building, while I was working through the red tape for the supplemental housing Section 8 Voucher program. I’m very grateful for the help from the SDA church. However, I was unaware that there are different provinces and factions within SDA Land’s religions? And I had run into a Last Generation Theology of Sinless Perfection SDA/Davidian Church. She also dines on a liberal portion of New Age Theology, and enjoys the company of spiritual predators. I found myself in a very tough spot. But did what I could to help out, to earn their hospitality, until the Lord gave me a way out. More to this story later…. 3. As I have stated before, I re-watch Balcony Talk episodes before releasing them for public view. In this episode is another statement to that fact. 4. Nathan has brought to the table a brilliant thought on the fruits of the tree of life vs the fruits of the tree of knowledge of good and evil. Let us know what you think? 5. I was, and still am, very disappointed with the lackluster response to the Ted Wilson Speech, Declaration, and Ultimatum. But. I have resolved myself into the realization that, maybe, the warning trumpet was just for me? I don’t know? Everyone else seems to be satisfied with doing the same things over and over and over again, but expecting different results? 6. The sermon drifted into all about monetary blessings from God. 7. I believe that it is a deliberate ignorance and blind denial today. 02/20/2024. 8. Besides Hamas invading Israel and Ted Wilson tooting the Kazoo, I had one other thing happen that I had never seen God move in this way, before, other than in the Old Testament?! I’m not tempting that kind of absolute power!

The Lord has led me on a journey through the consequences of my choices, that I would not trade for any book learning nor higher education that the world has to offer. Through the kindness of others- strangers and Christians alike- along with a couple of faithful teachers, and many more unfaithful teachers, but we can learn from the unfaithful, too. MaJoice, the lady pictured with me, was a faithful teacher who taught me much at our weekly lunches at Hibachi’s Grill. She wanted to make sure that both Dakota and I had a decent meal at least once a week, while we were homeless. You don’t meet too many like MaJoice in this world. And I’m very grateful the Lord brought her into my life at the beginning of our journey. The Lord weaves people in and out of our lives for His reasons. And I have purposed in my heart that, by the Spirit’s Guidance, I will try to look for the grace of God in the faithful teachers, and to learn from the mistakes of the unfaithful teachers. No matter what…. In Jesus name.

This year, the Lord has made me realize that, in Christ, I can discern the doubt seeds that those who harbor unbelief liberally sow. I did not know this was possible? The reaction to this phenomenon started making me physically ill after an encounter with someone who is still hanging onto some shame and darkness, doubt and unbelief. I inadvertently hurt some folks in the spiritual battles that ensued as I was kicking doubt and unbelief out of my spiritual door. I have apologized.

I believe that I was experiencing the outpouring of the Holy Spirit, which is freely given to all who ask, when I had no appetite and felt almost electrified. For everyone who asks, receives; the one who seeks finds; and the one who knocks, the door will be opened. I’ve learned more from the Lord about self-control and boundaries, through Christ, and am learning more every day. There is not much I can say to, nor about, the thoughts of the other people today? Because most of them still refuse to reconcile with me. It just is what it is. Prophecy Comes Alive….